The Inevitable

I think my milk supply is drying up. I have been nursing my 10 month old baby exclusively since birth, but now that he's getting so much solid food, my milk supply has really diminished. Either I have to start pumping outside of "normal pumping hours" or I have to supplement with formula. That really sucks. I've gone this far and only have two months left before I can completly switch him to whole milk. How do some mothers nurse until their child is two or three years old? They must be milk gods. I can't imagine the freedom I'll have once I do stop nursing. Such a strange thought considering I couldn't wait to get the little guy off the boob a few months ago.

New Day New Perspective

My attitude towards men and my h has completely changed from last week. Typical woman to flip flop every few days. I said to my h yesterday that he has been the ideal man over the past three days. Okay, so it's only been three days, but I'll take it. I'm even going out two nights this week without h or child. Nice. Of course I have this huge guild complex about going out w/out him and the child. Do all women have "the guilt complex" or is it something that we get b/c of our upbringing. Nature versus nurture. Most of the wives/mothers I know all have the same issues so I know it's not just me. I don't suspect that my h thinks twice while he's out on his own. Lucky him. Stupid me. I'm still going to go out and enjoy myself anyway.

Wednesday Rant

Woke up yesterday feeling overwhelmed. That's been a reoccuring theme in my life lately and I suspect, it's a reaccuring theme for a lot of women/mothers. I realize that I probably overestimate how much I really do on a daily basis, but is it so bad that I want my partner to do more? He reminded me yesterday about how he cleaned the tub about two weeks ago and how he cooked his meal for the week on Sunday night. What he failed to mention is that in the six years we have lived in our house, he's cleaned the tub about a handful of times. And is it so bad that I want him to cook or take care of dinner more than once a week? Yes, I should focus on what he does, not what he doesn't do. Screw that. I shouldn't have to feel guilty b/c I want the duties to be split equally. I want to be 'the one' who says "my husband is great, he does just as much or more around the house as I do." I have the luxury of staying home two days a week with our child and it seems like that automatically give him the right to assume I should take on more of the childcare/household duties. It almost makes me want to start back working full time. It's not like I'm not bringing home a decent salary, I almost make as much as he does. Men and societies view on women suck.

Ummmm

This is my first official blog. I really have nothing exciting to say, I just decided that I want my own place to make comments about what ever I want, when ever I want. Today is Monday and a good day to start something new. Cheers.